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Im grateful for having such a beautiful life surrounded by people who cared about me 🙏🏻 Im writing these kind of entry because I don't know how to express my gratitude. I would like to thank people for keep having me besides them, those people who keep loving me unconditionally, those people who trust me even I am not always trust myself 💕Im happy for having a family which help me through ups and down. The content of this entry would be as miserable as my life, so, thanks for reading!✌🏻

I really think that I would be more thoughtful throughout the year 💪🏻 But things seem not well as planned 🤦🏻‍♀️ for the million times in my life, I keep myself down by comparing myself to anyone else strength, ability and luck. im not a person yang tahu bsyukur kan? I knew it. I know myself more than  anyone else does. achai did tell me that im pretty enough for him and ignore what others people sayin'. Im his girlfriend. I just don't know why I feel so sad whenever he tell me not to mind people talk 🙍🏻 Im grateful for having him closed to me, offered me everything even he doesn't have enough for himself 😢 Motivate, cheer me whenever I feel sad. Just because I rarely confess that I love you so, it doesn't mean youre not important, youre precious as well as my family does. Youre know where you stand so keep it! Be with me. Losing you is my biggest fear. @itsachai

Things happened. I wonder why people keep pushing me foward to complete any task that I don't even sure to accomplish but at the end of the day, Im barely complete it and it sucks! 😫 Why people keep on expecting me to do the hard task, why people keep on making my life miserable, why people do not aware of my feelings, why people keep on being selfish, just why cant you guys understand how others may feel based on your action? 😤 just why? 😩 am I the type of person yang kamu bole makan ka? Im not sure if I can do this anymore, even the smallest thing of our group work pn still rely on me? like seriously? I am not pretty good at hiding my own feelings 😒I do hate people who discriminate others right. whoa just because im willing to help, it doesnt mean you guys may put it all on my shoulder ba. just stop la. ive so much to take care of. pls 🙏🏻🙏🏻

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either its my first or last post on 2016. Well, its Oct 2nd today. Two semester suda berlalu. Im upgrading level 7 yeay or nay? by hook or by crook, I'll end these battle, no matter what. for god sake, im tired. too tired. i feel like wanna crying to death. too much in my head. okay, todays sharing will be about appreciate. you will never appreciate things until youve realized that you lost 'em. honestly speak, we, everyone often do the same things, careless, doesnt think about how the others felt. well me, i also do the same things. how everyone be so clueless, i cant understand. i just cant understand. its so easy to put the blame to the others kan? its easy to consider others explanation as an excuses kan? well, human being. i understand but not frequently i will bear with it. so its equal la ba kan? sometime we should ignore, doesnt mean we dont care, but we just given them too much. stop. just stop givin' out without thinking abt yourself. the world has change, what we have, we must have it in return. what do i need to emphasized is, expectation lead us to the dissapointment. sostop expecting. thats all.

Eid Mubarak 2015 😍

Happy Eid Mubarak 2015 Guys!


Happy Eid Mubarak Guys.. Hari ni 6th Eid and teda suda orang datang beraya. Raya tahun ni best! Even though I've got a lot of assignment to do during this eid break, IDC :P HA HA HA HA.

Malam Takbir, we ols esehhh hahaha, kami bakar lemang, we never do it before. Selalunya abg ipar bakar di balai ja dgn kawan2 kerja dia. As usual, malam takbir teda la sangat cerita mau kongsi. We ols buat menu baru this year, Ayam Penyet. Mungkin itu la juga special dia raya tahun ni. wehuuu.

1st Eid, tahun ni macam biasa. Mesti nda lengkap HA HA HA. but nevermind, I dah biase :P tahun ni kaka unsang balik kampung laki dia di L.D. MacaM tipu la kan kalau nda rasa apa2 kalau nda beraya bersama, memang sedih juga la. annoying macam mana pun, masi juga disayang eewww HA HA HA HA :P so selfie raya harus ada.

2nd Eid, we attend sukaneka raya di surau kampung laba and take part dalam acara melestik tin. And guess what, I've got 1st prize you alls! makaseh makaseh. HA HA HA! ramai orang datang and seharian cuci piring yaw. penat mak. but nvm, ini kan raya! hehe

3rd Eid, nothing special hari tu. I just sleep and eat and chitchatting with my beloved ones. 

4th Eid, Achai came for the second time. kali ni bawa kawan kampung dia Nervous mak, hanya tuhan ja yang tau HA HA HA HA. bukan apa sebenarnya, mak xbiasa dengan mereka2, selalu dengar nama ja. kali ni face to face, awkward ba jadi dia. if you know what I mean. kena tenung, kena pandang2. haihh. lemas makkk. ahahahahahaha. whatever it is, give me some space and more time to get into their conv. what else? baju matching yaw! walaupun berkabung, so sweet juga ba! kamu apa tau HA HA HA HA! terlepas rindu mak dengan orang tersayang. sejak2 raya ni, makin matang muka dia. makin hensem, hauhh. tergoda I :P sebelum ni mmg hensem la ba kjuga tapi kali ni macam MAKIN ba. haihhh. why so handsome baby I love you! 

5th Eid, Mak didatangi oleh lembaga AMALINA MASRI and boyfie and ajie. And we ols beraya di membakut and bongawan. happy kemarin sebab lama nda jumpa classmate form 6 dulu kala. 

6th Eid, dirumah ja. macam biasa banyak assignment tertunda yang perlu diselesaikan. and well bye! thats all :P

HAPPY EID MUBARAK 2015 FROM US!

That Day 😉

30/05/2015. After 2 weeks of my semester break, finally! I've met my one and only love yeay! im not really have anything to share but yet, I love the feeling on that day. it may be so short in time but well, its okay.

Lama- lama nda jumpa acai ni, mulut diaaaaaaa, makin sinis. HAHAHA. but nevermind, a woman who truly loves you will angry at you for so many things but she will never leave you. and i'll never leave you cai, I swear. keep my words.

no title is also a title

This is me and who is he? He was my love. My one and only. pertama sekali, clishe la sikit ah. HAHAHAHAHA. benci aku tulis benda ni. bukan benci juga, malu ba aku mo cerita detik perkenalan ni HAHA. okay we'll start. Aku kenal suhaidih ni di PLKN MESAPOL SIPITANG 2011. cinta plkn? Oh tidak. dulu tidak sangat lah aku berkenalan dengan dia ni. lalu macam angin ja 🚫 wakakaka. sebab dia ni pemalu dia cakap padahal dia layan hotstuff ja tu. aku apa la juga. sidekick not allowed okay. kelasss abis suhaidih dulu. bila tengok gambar tu, I feel like wanna laugh. Im not type of girl yg akan keluar dengan sembarangan lelaki LEBIH LEBIH LAGI lelaki yamg aku nda kenal. can you imagine? he asked me to met him on that day and I didn't refused plus say YES innocently lagi 👈 aku nda yakin ba tu tapi begitu la kali ejaan dia HAHAHAHA. Ni gambar first date kitew, masa ni belum couple lagi, sebenarnya aku pun nda sure bila kami couple, pfftttt whatdahell mungkin la 9April. gamble ja hahaha.


second date macam xda #selfie. maklum la ba, malu malu kunun CISSS bikin malas. hahaha.. whatsoever la. here's our collection of picture, and thank Allah, we are 1 year and a month in a relationship and we still COUNTING yeay! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

 I do meet variety of people in this world. yang jahat. yang baik. yang pura2 baik. I met a lot!!! Amboi semangat Hahaha! Bila ckap pasal achai, bila ditanya kenapa pilih achai, I've got a plenty of answer on my head and I just can't blew it out. cesss aku antam ja tu hahahaha. tapi betul la. It just happened so sudden, I cant tell you guys an official date we declare our love *ayat minta penampar* TAPI it was happened on april last year for sure.

he's my pain, but he is also my cure. Sweet sangat kak yaya sekarang awch!

annoying kerrr? do i look like i care????? hahaha

 If they ask me, how could I stay with him until now and I think I should answer,

' if we really fall in love with someone, we could stay with him no matter what happened and what situation he ever gone through, and I believe, a successful man had a women as their strength and I wanna be the strength for him. I may not be the most prettier women nor kind also but beauty was measured in so much way, one of it is honesty. I will keep this honest feeling towards him and he may feel it by himself and I hope He will understand how deep my love was'

 He often told me that I am good enough but still, how can I believed on his word if I didn't feel the same? blablabla *overthinking* hahaha He's amazing just the way he are. I love the imperfection, edges, curves. yesss we've gone through many onak berliku dalam masa setahun ni but yet, here we are and In Sha Allah we will still counting till the end of our time, Aamiin.

What else could I write, baby you're the best I ever had and I glad that I have you with me. to teach me how to faced this cruel life, handle any complicated situation with calm. Im just so glad to have you, i really do baby 🌹🌹🌹I love you !

life with no rules

Its been a long time since the last time i do write on this blogs. LoLs mau juga speaking HAHAHAHAHAHA! Banyak sebenarnya yang aku mau tulis but giveme some space utk fikir macam mana mau mula tulis kay? HAHAHAHAHA bajet hot eww annoying :p

When it comes to my personal life matters. I just continued my study di UNITAR International University Sabah RC. I'm on my semester break and next month is my 3rd semester at unitar yeay! Bila ingat balik on a first day of my semester as a bachelor, Its felt like a dream. did you guys got what I mean? NO? nevermind and whatsoever. hahaha. aihh bajet hot abis speaking english ni. kita rojak saja boleh ba kan? dream? yeah. it felt like a dream. bukan apa. nda la juga dream sangat cuma being a bachelor student was my cita-cita dari dulu. and it was one of my mom wishes. I may told everyone that my MOTHER was my priority and I repeated, My PRIORITY. I've got CGPA 3.54 on my first semester and I honestly dedicated it for my mom. Maybe it is not good enough but I do my really best. aku nda kisah la apa orang sekeliling mau cakap, be one of IPTS sttudent are easy to get on the DEAN LIST? well. I don't really care with these kind of bitchy mouth. you should put some effort la kalau mau be on the top. well, forget about it. HAHAHA. I wont write in detail pasal life aku di hostel nor campus. cukup la aku ja yang faham betapa kelam-kabut nya we alls habiskan satu semester in 4month *crying* Check this out, shes one of my friend, my relatives, kawan buat jahat HAHAHA rindu juga la aku sama dia ni sebab biasa suda tengok muka dia sebelum tidur n bangun tidur. iya la, meluat juga sama dia ni tapi sabar sajala HAHAHAHAHAHA joke amalina I love you muahh!!!! Thats all i guess. thanks for reading!

This is Amalina. Dia bestie, dia lawan, dia saudara, Dia semuanya. 

When the heart doesn't tell the truth, Pain will give the answer.

1. Crush, Get out of my head and come into my life instead.

2. Crush, I wish I could tell you how I feel because you are all I think about when I go to bed.

3. Crush, No, I'm not scared to tell you that I like you, just scared of your reaction when I tell you.

4. Crush, You make me smile and you don't even know it.

5. Crush, Every time I talk to you I get a smile on my face that just won't go away.

6. Crush, Every time I look at my phone and I see I have a text from you, I get a really big smile on my face.

7. Crush, should I keeping my distance? because I am afraid to get close and get hurt again, do I follow my heart or do I protect it?

8. Crush, I hope you know that i'm thinking about you every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every year.

9. Crush, Would you follow me if i walked away?

10. Crush, I love you... Don't ever question that.

11. Crush, I hate admitting it but I really do miss you.

12. Crush, I feel really happy when I see you, because when I look at you and see your smile, it also makes me have a smile.

13. Crush, Yes, I flirt. But once I'm yours, I'm yours. I'll stay committed to you, and only you. No one else.

14. Crush, Whenever you need me..., I'll be there for you.

15. That awkward moment when we both look at each other from across the room at the same time, then look away.