You, Me, and Our PAST.

Assalamualaikum and have a wonderful wednesday.

I quite rarely make entries lately. There is nothing that I want to share. But today, I want to share about something that has happened in my life that made ​​me aware of some of life. For me this is very important. I do not expect people will read what I write. I do not force. I would like to share through writing than speaking directly to anyone. This entry may like the drama that often in TV, but this is the truth. I tell the truth.

5 years ago, I have met with a generally good person in my sight. I have known him in the previous two years, but I was a bit embarrassed to greets. He is actually a good friend to my brother. Classmates actually. I will not tell you all the time, seconds, inches from our first sight. I'll talk generally. Here the story begins.

He was perfect in my eyes, has the features I want. I love what is in him. handsome? He is not handsome like any celebrity. He is handsome as himself. He's shy. Courteous. All I want to have is on him. That is why I think he was perfect.

I was transferred to the another school by my mother. I do not want to be transferred, but what's my to my parents objected to the requirement. I finally did. I was then 15 years old, he was 17 years old. Two years difference does not pose any problem for me. I am happy with him.

Until the time, came a man in my life, steal my heart. I left him alone. I without feeling left him with many questions. Until I let down by the new men present today. I went back to him, he received me with open regardless of that over the years I have left him. How well his heart. I do not know what I was thinking at the time. I too chase appearance. Teenage love. I left him for the second times. But this time, I confess that my heart was stolen by someone else. He agreed. I left him without feeling. how sick his heart at that moment. How awful I am.

We meet after several years, I came across him when he was working. I was shocked. He just smiled at me and I return his smile. I do not think that day was the last day I saw him. two weeks pass, I was told that he had died due to an accident when he was going to work. I was shocked.

I do not think that he died at a young age. But who we are to determine life and death. Only God knows every single scene. I think this could be retaliation on me due to leave him first. I'm sorry. I  don't know what should I do. I have many sins to him. I don't have time to apologize to him. When through the street where he was an accident, I feel sad.

Dan sekarang saya hanya mampu untuk mengirimkan doa kepadanya disetiap sujud, disetiap solat yang saya laksanakan kerana saya sudah terlambat untuk meminta maaf. 30 JUNE 2012-30 JUNE 2013. Sudah setahun dia pergi meninggalkan kami. Namanya, wajahnya, senyumannya, perangainya masih segar dalam ingatan. Al-Fatihah kepada Mohd Fadhli Bin Jani :')

Moral of the story, Sayangi sesiapa sahaja yang menyayangi kita. Hargai sesiapa sahaja yang berada di sisi kita. Sayangi Allah terutamanya, sayangi keluarga, kawan, saudara dan sesiapa sahaja yang berada disekeliling kita sebelum semuanya terlambat. Sesal kemudian tidak berguna kan? Jadikan kisah saya sebagai pengajaran.

I'm always looking at your facebook account when I missed you.